First, I want to thank you for trying your best to bring me up after I ended up so deep down below. To be honest, I am still trying to think how to cope with this and still trying to decipher what you told me. Move on from sadness instead of the person. Hmmm... The more I think of it, the more I am unsure... should I really stay..... or..... well... I don't know... I think this time it is the worst and I have no idea how I should cope with this. I had couple experiences before and I know how to cope with it. But this time around, hmm.. I wonder.... what happenned? I am not sure. Asked myself, told myself, and wishing that it was just a dream like what Neyo used to sing. :P
Well, I really do hope I could get over this regardless whether I got my wish, or I just am not deserve for it. The feeling of hanging around like this is really the worst thing you can imagine. I feel... wrong at everything. And I think you will get tired of me being like this everytime as I used to be a quite joker (Really! you can check my previous posts :P haha)...
hmmm.... wait a minute.... What in the world I typed??? I don't even know. That is how messed up my mind now. I do hope I could get through this well.. well, that is always in my pray and always pray that I take a good decision for myself and everyone around me... I know it's hard to please everyone, but that is my bad habit and I think I cant change that. :P
Anyways, I will not promise that I will return to this blog again as whenever I promise, I never return. LOL! So, ya.. I will see you when I update again next time :P
H42
