Christmas 2012

It is Christmas again. I had a great time with it although what I wished, did not come true. But people say, "It's better than nothing", right? :)

As many Christmas time in the past, I always wish for the best for everyone. I wish that everyone has great time with their families and loved ones. As for me, I wish that I could make the best decision for me and everyone around me. :)

H42

P.S. It is also one of the happiest Christmas :)

Dream

There was a dream. It was so clear that the detail of it still remains after couple days. The scene, the people, the words, the mood, the feeling... I was expecting an answer. The answer that I have been wanting to know. It could be caused of the eagerly me. Been thinking of it for so long, so hard and.. so desperate I should say. But nevermind now that I won't be able to know the answer that it just went away without leaving me any answer.....

Beside the dream, there is another thing that stuck in my mind. This song by Noah (previously Peterpan) which titled "Separuh Aku". Love the lyric, love the song. It's true that people say, "happy people listen to the song, sad people listen to the lyric.". Haha. For those that are wondering, below I embed the song just for you all. :D

(This was typed last week but was left out :P)

H42

P.S. Ah, almost forgot. Happy b'dae to myself!! Happy 24th years surviving the hardness of the life. From now on, it is just a number. :)

One time...

There was one time that I was told this.......

Don't think too much

It's been a weakness for me yet till now, I fail not to do it... so.. ya... trying my best :)

Thanks.....

H42

Move on....from what?

First, I want to thank you for trying your best to bring me up after I ended up so deep down below. To be honest, I am still trying to think how to cope with this and still trying to decipher what you told me. Move on from sadness instead of the person. Hmmm... The more I think of it, the more I am unsure... should I really stay..... or..... well... I don't know... I think this time it is the worst and I have no idea how I should cope with this. I had couple experiences before and I know how to cope with it. But this time around, hmm.. I wonder.... what happenned? I am not sure. Asked myself, told myself, and wishing that it was just a dream like what Neyo used to sing. :P

Well, I really do hope I could get over this regardless whether I got my wish, or I just am not deserve for it. The feeling of hanging around like this is really the worst thing you can imagine. I feel... wrong at everything. And I think you will get tired of me being like this everytime as I used to be a quite joker (Really! you can check my previous posts :P haha)...

hmmm.... wait a minute.... What in the world I typed??? I don't even know. That is how messed up my mind now. I do hope I could get through this well.. well, that is always in my pray and always pray that I take a good decision for myself and everyone around me... I know it's hard to please everyone, but that is my bad habit and I think I cant change that. :P

Anyways, I will not promise that I will return to this blog again as whenever I promise, I never return. LOL! So, ya.. I will see you when I update again next time :P

H42

....In the end....

....In the end.... 

....Here I am..... 

....With so much.... 

....Things, Thoughts, Works.... 

....But too bad....

....I don't care....

....Because I end....

....Up alone again....

....In the end....

....H 4 2....

I will not give up :)