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I hates being like this but I can't do anything

I want to cry but I can't

I want to love but I can't

I want to hate but I can't

I want to be angry but I can't

I want to be sad but I can't

I am jealous but I don't want to admit it

I am stress but I don't know how to cope it

In conclusion, I am just human that is still learning the way of life.....

H42

Hate post

It is almost the end of 2nd week of 6th semester in Monash. The time left for me before the exams is approx. 11 weeks. But it will be the longest or maybe the shortest 11 weeks in my life. Currently I am having extremely difficult situation (HQ HQ, Mayday Mayday, we have a situation here!!!). It is my final year project. After we thought that we are going to do fine, we just realized we got to do it in Object Oriented programming. I HATE IT. REALLY. I don't know why I hate that. I just hate it. Maybe because I am not good in Java therefore I hate it. I have to recode everything and I am going to be late according to the schedule....

And in addition of that, I still have not touched any of other assignments. This FYP sure sapped alot of my time, effort, sleep, rest, happiness and much more! I wish by the time I finished this, I am not crazy or something. Oh gosh, I wish I got someone to dump EVERYTHING. Well, not literally of course. LOL.

It's 3 AM already. I am gonna have class at 10 AM. I wonder if I could attend it. I have to recode my FYP. Because I am not really good in this, I got to read quite alot. And I tell you, when I want to read, there is always some disturbances. And 1 more thing, I hate myself that is easy to be affected by people's words. Well, maybe I just too stubborn and I just hate being manipulated by people. I like to have it my way (sounds familiar eh??? LOL). Maybe that is why I hate groupwork or groupstudy. Well, guess it is just me being too stubborn. :P

Hmm..... What happen to my post???? I didn't intend to post something like this... LOL... Anyhow despite those stressful moment of my life, I am really looking forward to jungle trekking. It is my 1st jungle trekking and canopy walk although the one I did in Langkawi can be considered as it. LOL.

After staring the monitor like......... 10 minutes....... I feel that i am sleepy. LOL. Too bad I got things to read. Sigh....Anyhow, let's hit the publish post button....:P........ gotta crash bed around 4 am....

H42

Continued.....

Went to Monash Uni to ask for the special consideration.....

It was a NO....

Lecturer aldy tried her best to uplift my score......

And I left with a disappointment.....

What's more is that I actually screwed up 2 of my exams....

Now, its too late to regret...

No point to regret...

The only way is to learn thru it and fix it this sem.....

So.... well.... this mayb gonna be my hardest semester.....

Failure is not an option.........

H42

Friday, 17th July 2009 12.23 AM

Received my result...

My heart was stopped for pico second......

I saw an N there.......

Well...I was kinda expecting that, but I don't expect the feeling will be too overhelming to be handled....

Now, I am hoping to get a special consideration for it.....

Now, I am hoping to be able to look forward with straight head....

Now, I know the feeling of failure....

I want to thank everyone that support me..............

H42

Holiday!!

At last, here it comes, the so called well-deserved holiday. I had a bad day with the 1st and the last exam and wishing for the best for them. LOL. Luckily I am okay with the 2nd one. In fact I was wishing that the 2nd one will be our last so that our exam period will be ended with happy ending. :D... too bad real life is not that as easy as walking in the park. :P

Anyways, what is done is done and let's look forward to next semester. And I am looking forward to my 3 weeks holiday starting today, 1st July. It was started on 26th June by Annita's lunch to celebrate her birthday. Thanks Ann, like the lunch. Snapped hell lot of picture for 2 hour event. And on the same day, we had farewell dinner with Tina and Steffi. They will be leaving to Australia to continue their study there. I wish u a very good luck there my 2 pretty girl XD XD XD....and the day was ended by watching Transformers 2. I recommend readers to watch the movie. In my opinion, this movie is the best movie of the month for me. :D

ameq is furious!!! XD

Boys with Ann

gorgeous....XD

Girls with Ann

me.... wanna eat the faraway oily meat..XD

Leo with boys..:D...

long exposure break shot...

with Steffi and Tina...:D

hmmmm....

On 27th to 30th, we went to various places with less and less members. LOL. In the end left us 3, me , Jimz and FimTan. Too bad FimTan will be going back as well on 4th July on the morning. Thus left 2 of us. And I have to start to think about my Final Year Project. Got to start it earlier so that I will not have to squezee it with the other assignments on next semester. :(... Got no choice as it is going to be my last semester in Monash University. Anyways, I think I am addicted again with Initial D Arcade although it is not until I want to purchase the card. The card cost freaking 16 RM. Now, that what I called as expensive. :D

So for now, I think I will have some well deserved holiday and put the project aside. And I am very happy now despite the project. Don't know why, but I am just happy. There is no reason needed to smile or being happy. :D... So, for todays menu, gonna go karaoke with Julie cs and watch Ice Age 3 in 3D. Hope it is worth the money. :D

Btw, yesterday, I broke my glasses. It was 2.5 years old. T_T... I really wish to get the same model again, but I don't think my parents and friends allow it. So, on that day, I went to pyramid to order another one. Will post the photo ASAP. For the other photos, I will post them tomorrow. :D

my precious~~~~

now in pieces....T_T

Okay la, gotta sleep for now. :D

H42

********UPDATE********

It has arrived!! My new glasses.... Schwarzenbach.... fiuh...... but there is one thing, when I am wearing it, I feel dizzy...got to bring it to pyramid to be calibrated again, this time based on my old glasses...:D

my brand new spanking glasses...XD