Here we go another post of the month :P. This is typed during my trip to Malaysia (again) for convocation. Now, how great the feeling that is. I am really looking forward to this event. In fact, this is event that MAYBE will occur once in your life. So, ya, I really have a good feeling regarding this upcoming event which will be held on the 13th day of November 2010. :D
However, when I said great feeling, it is actually a mixed feeling. This event could means the end of my annual visit to Malaysia. To tell you the truth, this maybe the last visit to Malaysia. No more cheap food :P. I am kinda sad to think that perhaps I will meet up with friends that are still studying there for the last time for the year. Maybe next year we could meet up, but who knows? Maybe not even next year? I am not sure. But I know what you guys will tell me. Life must go on. :)
Hmm...so the plan for the month is, staying in Malaysia until 18th and I will go back to my hometown *Leaving by Jet Plane background music* :D. Home sweet home baby! :D Funny thing is that I will miss premierre of the 7th Harry Potter movie on the following day. I do not know whether the movie in my hometown is showing this on the 19th or not.
*thinking whether I want to post the next part or not*
I do not know what happen but recently I feel abit.....well....empty. I think I just lost one of my spirit to continue life. Yeah, i think that is the most approriate to describe it. I do not know why, but I think it started from last month I think? I am not sure of my self. Seeing many friends are beginning to get jobs or have things to do, I feels something tickling my inner. Guess the tickling is named jealousy. Too bad I just could not resist not to jealous as I have been jobless since hmm....what, March 2010? That is freaking 8 month! Wao, time does flies...:/
I guess that is enough for now. I begin to become my old self that is abit, well, closed? I do not know the right term, but I think you get the idea. :). And I do not know why I would want to become like that but I guess living alone for too long could lead to this condition I think.
Well, I guess this mark the end of the post. Hopefully I have some internet connection during my stay in hometown. Perhaps the next post will be about my convo :D. So, see you all.
H42
However, when I said great feeling, it is actually a mixed feeling. This event could means the end of my annual visit to Malaysia. To tell you the truth, this maybe the last visit to Malaysia. No more cheap food :P. I am kinda sad to think that perhaps I will meet up with friends that are still studying there for the last time for the year. Maybe next year we could meet up, but who knows? Maybe not even next year? I am not sure. But I know what you guys will tell me. Life must go on. :)
Hmm...so the plan for the month is, staying in Malaysia until 18th and I will go back to my hometown *Leaving by Jet Plane background music* :D. Home sweet home baby! :D Funny thing is that I will miss premierre of the 7th Harry Potter movie on the following day. I do not know whether the movie in my hometown is showing this on the 19th or not.
*thinking whether I want to post the next part or not*
I do not know what happen but recently I feel abit.....well....empty. I think I just lost one of my spirit to continue life. Yeah, i think that is the most approriate to describe it. I do not know why, but I think it started from last month I think? I am not sure of my self. Seeing many friends are beginning to get jobs or have things to do, I feels something tickling my inner. Guess the tickling is named jealousy. Too bad I just could not resist not to jealous as I have been jobless since hmm....what, March 2010? That is freaking 8 month! Wao, time does flies...:/
I guess that is enough for now. I begin to become my old self that is abit, well, closed? I do not know the right term, but I think you get the idea. :). And I do not know why I would want to become like that but I guess living alone for too long could lead to this condition I think.
Well, I guess this mark the end of the post. Hopefully I have some internet connection during my stay in hometown. Perhaps the next post will be about my convo :D. So, see you all.
H42
3 comments:
Ko har.. ganbatte!!! =)
Jangan pernah berputus asa.. =)
hope for the best, pray, and strive.. never stop trying... =)
and speaking about trying, just try every opportunity given first! =)
u might not like it or even suit your field, but it could be a stepping stone to the path that u like and you want!!! =)))
wishing you all the best from here.. =)
Devi
ehh!! u!!! haha...dont la close urself up...i know what u mean...coz sometimes when we r alone too often too long we bcome closed too...haha...but can chat w us alwez what haha...
i hv the same thoughts w u..n its been a long time liao...for me...its tht...i hv made such wonderful friends...n all of u hav to leave malaysia soon...none of u r able to stay here n work here...so yea..the best i can do is just keep connectd w whomever i can online
the emptiness is something all of us feel...just rmb tht the feeling shall pass...n if u need someone to pass it with...find us n chat w us...bcoz we feel equally as empty as well haha
im sure u will find something u like...take ur time n enjoy ur freedom now...like devi says...just try any opportunity ur given first..u nv know...u might like it more than u think u do =)
n yay! ur back! if wanna go out anytime this week, just sms me ya!
Dohh bapak HARTANTO, WAKE UP!! :) :) :)
haha!! coba bilang ke diri sendiri, ini bukan battle, bertarung siapa yang cepet dapet kerja ato bertarung tentang apapun.. Ini hanyalah jalan dari kehidupan, perlihatkan klo kita kuat dan sabar untuk berjalan di jalan bebatuan ini :)
Well, aku juga pernah merasakan kekosongan itu, merasa putus asa. Daftar sampai ratusan koq ga ada yang respond? entah sampe ato ga resume ku? apa diriku ini buruk gitu sampe ga ada respond? haha!! Tapi darisitu kita ga boleh langsung aja putus asa har, itu hanya pikiran yg ga ada kerjaan dan akhirnya mikir kaya' gitu..
Pernah baca cerita dari key of wisdom? tentang effort dan patience :) :). I am inspired by that story..
Dan untuk saat ini, karena memang blom ada panggilan dan kerja, aku lebih mengaktifkan diriku di vihara ato bantu siapa yang butuh pertolongan. Kita tetep berusaha tetapi juga mengisi hari2 kita dengan sesuatu yang berarti :) :). Try it, har, and you'll see this moment differently :)
Enjoy the free time we have rite now! It will never come back, okok :)
anyway, somehow, i can sense that u are trying to close urself ;p.. but please think again, you have such wonderful things, are u sure u are going to leave them? :p
HUGS! :)
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