The last month of year 2010

This is it. The end of my hometown stay and I will be in airplane going to Sunway tomorrow morning. The visit was pleasant as always and I have eaten tons of food here. Expect me become abit wider instead of wiser :P

Not much to be added here. But somehow, I think I need to rethink whom should I put my trust to.

H42

Bachelor of Information Technology and System obtained!

This is the moment! My name is officially 2 words. LOL! Hartanto, BITS. Great night and great surprise. All in all, I want to thank my parents, sister, and all of my friends for supporting me from start of this journey till the end of the journey of obtaining a scroll stating I am officially a Bachelor. Yay! Anyways, 2 more days and I will be back to home sweet home for the 1st time during this year. Kinda excited for it. :D In the end, I want to say thanks for everyone and good luck for those that are still struggling through their university course. All I can say, be hardworking and enjoy! You will miss university life once you get over it :)

H42

Convocation is at the corner.....of next week...:P

Here we go another post of the month :P. This is typed during my trip to Malaysia (again) for convocation. Now, how great the feeling that is. I am really looking forward to this event. In fact, this is event that MAYBE will occur once in your life. So, ya, I really have a good feeling regarding this upcoming event which will be held on the 13th day of November 2010. :D

However, when I said great feeling, it is actually a mixed feeling. This event could means the end of my annual visit to Malaysia. To tell you the truth, this maybe the last visit to Malaysia. No more cheap food :P. I am kinda sad to think that perhaps I will meet up with friends that are still studying there for the last time for the year. Maybe next year we could meet up, but who knows? Maybe not even next year? I am not sure. But I know what you guys will tell me. Life must go on. :)

Hmm...so the plan for the month is, staying in Malaysia until 18th and I will go back to my hometown *Leaving by Jet Plane background music* :D. Home sweet home baby! :D Funny thing is that I will miss premierre of the 7th Harry Potter movie on the following day. I do not know whether the movie in my hometown is showing this on the 19th or not.

*thinking whether I want to post the next part or not*

I do not know what happen but recently I feel abit.....well....empty. I think I just lost one of my spirit to continue life. Yeah, i think that is the most approriate to describe it. I do not know why, but I think it started from last month I think? I am not sure of my self. Seeing many friends are beginning to get jobs or have things to do, I feels something tickling my inner. Guess the tickling is named jealousy. Too bad I just could not resist not to jealous as I have been jobless since hmm....what, March 2010? That is freaking 8 month! Wao, time does flies...:/

I guess that is enough for now. I begin to become my old self that is abit, well, closed? I do not know the right term, but I think you get the idea. :). And I do not know why I would want to become like that but I guess living alone for too long could lead to this condition I think.

Well, I guess this mark the end of the post. Hopefully I have some internet connection during my stay in hometown. Perhaps the next post will be about my convo :D. So, see you all.

H42

Happy Birthday!

Happy 22nd birthday to myself! Thank you for all the wishes and thank you for the PROJECT! Haha. I love them. :)

H42

At last...a new post

Do not mind the previous post. It was typed last week. Yes, it was off couple days from prediction. I guess I was too slacking. But well, here we are, new post. :P

Hmm... how many months since i posted a real post here? Two? Three? WAO! It has been so long since the last post. Well, where should I begin? Hmm.... OH how about I talk in general? This should shorten the length of the post significantly, right? Well, It has been 5 months since I am starting my job-seeking in Singapore. Started with staying alone without internet for 2 weeks until staying with Jimz in the new house. Oh ya. I moved to new place now.The place was nice and the owner was super nice. Kinda love the place as at last I am staying in a room with proper window and sitting on proper chair and using laptop on table. :D And, oh! Did I mention it has aircon and free internet? :D

Hmm...what else? Hmm...OH! Ya! The job seeking adventure. :D.. For these 3 months, I got around hmm....8? 9? Oh! not really. I think there were 5 interviews. Actually, last 2 weeks, I was offered a job. It was decent job and you know what? I like it! But somebody did not like me. Yes, if you could guess it, it was the SPASS. For your information, this pass must be applied by the company that hired you. It was rejected on the same day I applied for it. I was so surprised but at the end of the day, I could calm myself and I could even throw a joke. The joke is "Well, no worries. The company did not get me. Thats all!". Haha. Well, no worry about that, I could get another one. :) That is what inspire me since the rejection. So, ya, do not worry about it. :)

Well, now being in Malaysia for some refreshing time, I will try to calm myself more and next week, when I am back to Singapore, I will have a better spirit in job-seeking journey. It is not the end of the journey. It is just another wave that was trying to shake my boat of life which will not throw it off balance. :D

Another random thing is, I overslept during my departure day to Malaysia. It was horrible and I lost 1 ticket. Luckily I got another ticket at 2.30 pm to Malaysia. And the guess what? The day was not ended with that. The bus got flat tire. Now that IS bad day. Haha. All in all, I could arrive in Malaysia safe and sound and it is enough for me. :)

OH, just for some joke. I have an alarm application for my phone. It actually has a briliant feature which is to force the "victim" in this case me, to solve some math equation while the alarm goes off. There are 5 difficulties to choose from. I know what you are thinking. Let me show you, the VERY HARD difficulty math problem that you have to solve with sleepy eyes on the morning.

See how you solve that? There is even an option for changing the problem if you answer wrongly......... I would prefer not...haha

Well, that is all for this post. :) I will post another one again soon. :D

H42

Small and Late Update

Don't you think the last post was like months ago? Well, indeed. LOL. I am still not ditching my blog yet. I have 2 posts currently in my mind. Hope I could post them like in these 3 days. Well, hope so. So, well, just wait ;)

H42

Small Project :)

I must be too bored that I started a small project. I gathered up all photos from my digital camera and handphone since the start of my CIMP course until the end of Monash course. Total pictures are around 16000. And I managed to extract 378 photos from them. And then I posted them in Facebook and captioned everything. I even put date taken on all photos to show the progress of my staying in Malaysia. So, here we are! I present you those two albums. :)

First Album

Second Album

Took me a week to finished the project. The hardest part was captioning all photos.
In the end, it was an enjoyable experience being able to re-live all memories that perhaps we have forgotten. And I laughed alot during choosing, captioning and commenting all the photos. Thanks everyone for supporting me. :D You all are the best! ;)

H42

Funny feeling

There is one time, when I thought that I have already settle my feeling to being independent, accepting that we have to separate.

But in the end

I cried.....

so much....

so loud.....

so speechless.....

Somehow I don't even know how I was able to cry like that. It was the 1st time I cried as much as that night. For everyone that 1st time seeing me being such a crybaby like that, pardon me. :P

Somehow, I realize that during my stay in Singapore, I really do miss you all but I just did not notice it until now. I wish, I could stay longer, but as one of my friend said, life must go on.

In the end, I hope that was not good bye but a see ya moment. I believe we will be able to meet again in the future and have fun together again.

H42

P.S. There are 3 new albums that I will post in the FB. Just wait and see. :)

I don't care

I really seldom say "I don't care" even when I was angry. Maybe at the time, I really mean it. But in the end, I will always care because that is who I am. :)

H42

In the end

In the end, i forgot to update this very blog. :P Despite visitting it everyday, but i keep ignoring it. But the funny thing is, just now, i open, i click new post and here I am. Funny eh?

Nothing much, but I am back to Singapore and as usual, waiting for interview that never comes. LOL.

Not only those things that I have been thinking. There are quite some thoughts that have been running in my mind since the start of this month. The hardest thing is to share those thoughts here... as... they are not for public consumption. :(

Anyways, praying hard to get a job and hopefully in the end, I could solve my thoughts...:)

H42

2 weeks being stranded in Singapore

After 2 weeks being stranded on other people's island, I finally have my own internet. Ya, me as computer and internet geek lived a internet-less life for 2 weeks, imagine that! It is like asking an accountant to do auditting without any calculating device. Ya, I know it is a lame example compare with mine. :P

Anyways, here I am. Being thinner than 2 weeks ago since I left Sunway Pyramid heading south. Ya, you heard me right, I am getting thinner. Why u ask? I guess, because of my monotonous daily meal. I have mixed rice everytime I am in foodcourt and ice coffee as the drink. Guess it is what making me feeling thinner than ever. XD Well, I know it is not good to have that one kind of food each time I having my meal, but, I can't help it. Can't find any food that has as rich-of-nutrition as mix rice as I can control it. :P And coffee? Well, I just cannot hold myself not to drink one. LOL.

Okay, so what am I doing again in Singapore? Erhmmm.... Oh ya! Searching for jobs.......or job? Guess I will prefer ONE job, so, let's stick with searching for JOB. XD Due to internet-less life, I could not apply from internet, so when I got my connection on Saturday, I sent quite alot of it like there is no tomorrow. XD But until now, no luck...:(

Hmm....so, couple things that I could list out in point form....

• I feel that catching last train n last bus is fun....XD XD
• I was being asked by a junior high school student for buying him cigarette....wth...
• I saw....a elementary student that speak foul words and have piercing at his ears.....swt
• I was called for an interview for face modelling...yeah... u heard me right...face modelling... rejected it...XD

So, now here I am! Jobless, thinner and poorer...ya... could not earn money makes me poorer everyday...sigh.......

Anyways, got to crash again...I could not sleep until 7 AM this morning and I tell you, it is horrible. Lucky, I could add some sleep hour during afternoon....Fiuh...So, until next time then....:D

H42

Update!
Just wondering, so I weighted myself and saw 69 kg...wth...

:'(

w harus tabah.....

w harus sabar.....

life must go on......


H42

Some comments of morning activities in Singapore.....part 1?

Here I am. In McDonalds waiting for Aeroline bus going back to Sunway. ETA is around 1.30 PM. For the first time I board MRT as early as 6 AM! And boy! I saw alot, ALOT of students at junior high school age boarding it as well. For me, it's really damn morning u know? And there are not only those students but also workers and troops (or many NS participants?). Some of them even still tucking their head here and there. Perhaps extra sleeps are needed? :P

And other common thing that I can see is half of them are wearing headphone. This brings me back to yesterday which my old friend told me. It can get very lonely boarding MRT alone from workplace or school back to home. So he purchase a music player to accompany him. Well, he used "penyambung hidup" or u can say life saver. Well, it is THAT lonely. Hopefully I can endure with this kind of situation as I just experienced 1 week in Singapore. There are alot of weeks waiting for me to spend wisely. Hmph! Wisely uh? Let's see then. :P

1 cup of tea and 1 cup of coffee as breakfast! Wow. This is big breakfast man! Haha. Tried McGriddles with egg meal. Tell you what. It is a hot meal. Literally. Lol. It tastes like pancake with sausages and egg. Quite unique but i feel the usual breakfast English muffin is much better. The pancake tastes abit sweet as according to what I read, it is infused with syrup. Well, overall, it has unique taste. :) Another thing that I could conclude from looking at people here. They do love Big Breakfast. Half of them are eating them now. LOL. Abit different with Malaysia which I saw more burger than the big breakfast which tastes okay okay. :P

Anyways, here goes the post. Will be posting another random thing after I have some inspirations. :P

H42

Singapore outing....as if...:P

Here I come! The long awaited update that you guys have been sorely waiting for. XD

I am currently in McD Queenstown in Singapore. Well, what so special of this place is, it is the only McD that has 2 ponds inside its area. LOL. Too bad I don't dare to take the picture as currently there are too many people. It is kinda rude you know if we take picture of them. Anyways, if you has not noticed, I am "summoned" by my parents to Singapore to get some jobs......well... as i have lived my jobless days too long already. Haha.... So, now I live with my cousins that have been in Singapore for quite long and they also helped me to apply Landed Permanent Resident (LPR) which if approved, will grant me 1 year time staying in Singapore searching for a job. As your information, we Indonesia, only have 1 month of time using tourist visa in Singapore.

Well, for this week, I spent it by staying in my room doing nothing but looking at laptop....surfing, downloading and gaming. LOL. Luckily, yesterday, me, Mindy, Jenny, and Indra went to Ochard having fun together (read: spending money :P ). If you ask me for photos, well, I don't have any as we were too busy talking like there is no tomorrow. LOL. Yeah, I am serious. It was THAT exciting because apparently each of us was alone searching for friend for having fun together. Indra is having his test soon. Mindy is waiting for her convocation. And Jenny,....well..... searching for people to go out. We went to movie then we went for walk from Ochard to Dhoby Ghaut. It is not that far actually as we were to0 busy chatting. And we end our outing with dinner. Too bad I ordered something that is too ordinary. I wish I ordered something unique. Haha. Anyways, it was a good meal and I love the time being with my friend.

So, what should I add here? Hmm...There are couple things that I realize during my 1 week stay here. IPHONES! Most of the people here are holding iPhones! There are so many iPhones that I thought there are iPhone free giving somewhere. Haha. Lame. But I guess, iPhone's mobile plan here is relatively cheap given the situation here. Another thing is, there are still couple people that are not that considerate enough. In MRT for example, young people sitting on the seat and even reserved seat while old people are miserably trying to hold on the grapple hold. That is kinda sad thing to see you know? But, I could not help as I was standing myself. Haha. Talking about standing in MRT, it brings me another thing that I have a new habit now. Sleeping in MRT while standing. No kidding! Haha. Another hobby? Hmmm..... Don't know...But I am sure I could develop new hobbies while staying here. LOL!

Anyways, this I guess will end the post. Believe it or not, the typing needs almost 12 hours! LOL! I was typing and watching youtube, surfing, playing MH, and other things. LOL! So, see you guys in next post. People in Malaysia! Wait for my return! I will return as I miss you too much!! XD

H42

:)

It's good to feel it runs from the tip of my eyes across my face to the jaw again.

H42

Just some words

It's not that I already forgot to update this blog

It's not that I wanted to stop blogging

It's not that I hate to publish what happened in these 2 months

It's not that I had no time to type everything that happened

It's not that I had job so that I have lost interest in blogging or simply didn't have time

It's just that I have alot of thoughts that I wanted to share, but I have to filter them for public consumption which in the end, I didn't type anything............................

It's just I have to find any good time alone, and typing mood and of course fresh idea for next post............

H42

Cinta : sebuah karya dari khalil gibran

kenapa kita menutup mata ketika kita tidur?
ketika kita menangis?
ketika kita membayangkan?
itu karena hal terindah di dunia tdk terlihat

ketika kita menemukan seseorang yang
keunikannya sejalan dengan kita, kita bergabung
dengannya dan jatuh ke dalam suatu keanehan
serupa yang dinamakan cinta.

Ada hal2 yang tidak ingin kita lepaskan,
seseorang yang tidak ingin kita tinggalkan,
tapi melepaskan bukan akhir dari dunia,
melainkan suatu awal kehidupan baru,
kebahagiaan ada untuk mereka yang tersakiti,
mereka yang telah dan tengah mencari dan
mereka yang telah mencoba.
karena merekalah yang bisa menghargai betapa
pentingnya orang yang telah menyentuh kehidupan
mereka.

Cinta yang sebenarnya adalah ketika kamu
menitikan air mata dan masih peduli terhadapnya,
adalah ketika dia tidak memperdulikanmu dan
kamu masih menunggunya dengan setia.

Adalah ketika di mulai mencintai orang lain dan
kamu masih bisa tersenyum dan berkata
” aku turut berbahagia untukmu ”

Apabila cinta tidak bertemu bebaskan dirimu,
biarkan hatimu kembalike alam bebas lagi.
kau mungkin menyadari, bahwa kamu menemukan
cinta dan kehilangannya, tapi ketika cinta itu mati
kamu tidak perlu mati bersama cinta itu.

Orang yang bahagia bukanlah mereka yang selalu
mendapatkan keinginannya, melainkan mereka
yang tetap bangkit ketika mereka jatuh, entah
bagaimana dalam perjalanan kehidupan.
kamu belajar lebih banyak tentang dirimu sendiri
dan menyadari bahwa penyesalan tidak
seharusnya ada, cintamu akan tetap di hatinya
sebagai penghargaan abadi atas pilihan2 hidup
yang telah kau buat.

Teman sejati, mengerti ketika kamu berkata ” aku
lupa ….”
menunggu selamanya ketika kamu berkata ”
tunggu sebentar ”
tetap tinggal ketika kamu berkata ” tinggalkan aku
sendiri ”
mebuka pintu meski kamu belum mengetuk dan
belum berkata ” bolehkah saya masuk ? ”
mencintai juga bukanlah bagaimana kamu
melupakan dia bila ia berbuat kesalahan,
melainkan bagaimana kamu memaafkan.

Bukanlah bagaimana kamu mendengarkan,
melainkan bagaimana kamu mengerti.
bukanlah apa yang kamu lihat, melainkan apa
yang kamu rasa,
bukanlah bagaimana kamu melepaskan melainkan
bagaimana kamu bertahan.

Mungkin akan tiba saatnya di mana kamu harus
berhenti mencintai seseorang, bukan karena orang
itu berhenti mencintai kita melainkan karena kita
menyadari bahwa orang iu akan lebih berbahagia
apabila kita melepaskannya.

kadangkala, orang yang paling mencintaimu adalah
orang yang tak pernah menyatakan cinta
kepadamu, karena takut kau berpaling dan
memberi jarak, dan bila suatu saat pergi, kau akan
menyadari bahwa dia adalah cinta yang tak kau
sadari

Taken from http://www.puisi.org/2008/02/28/cinta-sebuah-karya-dari-khalil-gibran/

The poem..........left too many impressions on me.....

H42

Got from kaskus

I got this when I was surfing thru kaskus..... I don't know, but I just feel like posting it....

1.Orang yang mencintai kamu tidak pernah bisa memberikan alasan kenapa ia mencintai kamu yang ia tahu di matanya hanya ada kamu Satu2Nya.

2.Kalau kamu sudah memiliki pacar atau kekasih ia tidak perduli, buat dia yang penting kamu bahagia dan kamu tetap impiannya.

3.Orang yang mencintai kamu selalu menerima kamu apa adanya, dimatanya kamu salalu yang tercantik walaupun mungkin kamu merasa berat badan kamu sudah berlebihan atau kamu merasa kegemukan

4.Orang yang mencintai kamu selalu ingin tahu tentang apa saja yang kamu lalui sepanjang hari ini, ia ingin tahu kegiatan kamu.

5.Orang yang mencintai kamu akan mengirimkan sms seperti “slmt pagi”, “slmt hari minggu”, “selamat tidur”walaupun kamu tidak membalas pesannya.

6.Kalau kamu berulang tahun dan kamu tidak mengundangnya setidaknya ia akan menelpon utk mengucapkan selamat atau mengirim pesan.

7.Orang yang mencintai kamu akan selalu mengingat setiap kejadian yang ia lalui bersama kamu, bahkan mungkin kejadian yang kamu sendiri sudah lupa setiap detailnya karena, saat itu adalah sesuatu yang berharga untuknya.

8.Orang yang mencintai kamu selalu mengingat tiap kata2 yang kamu ucapkan bahkan mungkin kata2 yang kamu sendiri lupa pernah mengatakannya.

9.Orang yang mencintai kamu akan belajar menyukai lagu-lagu kesukaanmu, bahkan mungkin meminjam CD/cassette kamu, karena ia ingin tahu kesukaanmu,kesukaanmu kesukaannya juga.

10.Kalau terakhir kali kalian bertemu kamu sedang sakit mungkin flu, terkilir, atau sakit gigi, beberapa hari kamudian ia akan mengirim sms dan menanyakan keadaanmu.karena ia mengkhawatirkanmu.

11.Kalau kamu bilang akan menghadapi ujian ia akan menanyakan kapan ujian itu, dan saat harinya tiba ia akan mengirimkan sms “good luck “untuk menyemangati kamu.

12.Orang yang mencintai kamu akan memberikan suatu barang miliknya yang mungkin buat kamu itu ialah sesuatu yang biasa , tetapi itu ialah suatu barang yang isitmewa buat dia.

13.Orang yang mencintai kamu akan terdiam sesaat,saat sedang berbicara ditelpon dengan kamu,sehingga kamu menjadi bingung, saat itu dia merasa sangat gugup karena kamu telah mengguncang dunianya.

14.Orang yang mencintai kamu selalu ingin berada di dekatmu dan ingin
menghabiskan hari2nya denganmu.

15.Jika suatu saat kamu haruS pindah ke kota lain untuk waktu yang lain ia akan memberikan nasehat supaya kamu waspada dengan lingkungan yang bisa membawa pengaruh buruk bagimu.

16.Orang yang mencintai kamu bertindak lebih seperti saudara daripada seperti seorang kekasih.

17.Orang yang mencintai kamu sering melakukan hal-hal yang konyol seperti menelponmu 100 kali dalam sehari, atau membangunkanmu ditengah malam,karena ia mengirim sms atau menelponmu.karena ia saat itu ia sedang memikirkan kamu.

18.Orang yang mencintai kamu kadang merindukanmu dan melakukan hal2 yg membuat kamu jengkel atau gila, saat kamu bilang tindakannya membuatmu terganggu ia akan minta maaf dan tak akan melakukannya lagi.

19.Jika kamu memintanya untuk mengajarimu sesuatu maka ia akan mengajarimu dengan sabar walaupun kamu mungkin orang yang terbodoh di dunia!

20.Kalau kamu melihat handphone-nya maka namamu akan menghiasi sebagian besar “INBOX”nya.Ya ia masih menyimpan pesan dari kamu walaupun pesan itu sudah kamu kirim sejak berbulan2x bahkan bertahun2x yang lalu.

21.Dan jika kamu menghindarinya atau memberi reaksi penolakan, ia akan menyadarinya dan menghilang dari kehidupanmu, walaupun hal itu membunuh hatinya.

22.Jika suatu saat kamu merindukannya dan ingin memberinya kesempatan ia akan ada di sana
menunggumu karena ia tak pernah mencari orang lain. Ya… ia selalu menunggumu.

H42

Sudden urge to post....:P

It's been awhile..... but I could not resist not to post it.....

I MISS YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Damn, I said it.... And I mean it...... Wish I could turn back the time.....

H42, who miss you badly....

It's my first post in year 2010....

I was opening my blog to open my friend's blog and GOOD LORD! The last post was dated back at December 2009 and now it is 2010. So, after reading my friend's blog, well, here I am of course, typing the first post in year 2010 *shame on me*......Anyways, here we go....

Hmm..... where should I start this??? Hmm.... How about year 2010? Since this is already 2010, and we are not supposed to look back too far away. :) *believe me, you did not miss anything ;) * So, year 2010 was started with....well... a cheers! Me, Farid, Chandra, Fimtan, Colin and Edi. We celebrated the very first minute of year 2010 in B15-01. And boy, it was great. And as usual, there were fireworks at every corner of the world.

All of us

One of the fireworks in Sunway Lagoon

Time flew very fast and the fourth day of the year, I had to attend my first summer class. And now, I have finished it! Really, time does flies too fast! Without realizing it, it almost Chinese New Year which is on the very same day with Valentine Day. Wew, what a day with full of love. XD... Speaking of CNY, I will not be in hometown as my parents do not want to celebrate it there. Don't know why, but I guess it is too much hassle. So, I will be in Singapore ( yeah I know how Singapore is during CNY) from 11 to 17 February.

Now, while waiting for exam, beside studying, I have to think quite many things. Let's see where do we start this "things"..... Okay, first. What do I do next after I finish this summer well? Finding job right away? Settling living place in Singapore? Settling student visa here? Sending all my things? Opening bank account? Closing bank account? Getting all the deposit? Geez, I guess I really have to list all of those......

Thinking of those matters, really made me feels....well...blue? or..... sad? hmmmm Don't know. It is just me I guess. Because, after this, we will be separated. I mean, really separated. Everyone is going every direction available in compass. Guess, there is always a meeting up and separation circle uh? Hmph! I feel this is just the way we live our life. Meet up, separate, meet up, separate. It will go and on and on.

Okay! So, that was the sad part. So, what else? Hmmm......This week and next week is gonna be abit busy. I have to settle some house fees as the head of the house is in Palembang and he is gaining weight! Yeah! JK bro. Next is I have to book my ticket to Singapore and of course I have to study for the exam on 9th February. Luckily this subject does not have any bizarre jargon. And it is not that hard either! Hope I could score well and finish Monash for good! Yipppeeee!!!!

Well, I think that's all first for this post. Will update more once I finish my exam...:D...And the last but not the least I want to congratz Chan n Vee.... Wish all the best...;)

H42